Worry wart

"Joy unspeakable that won't go away
Just enough strength to live for a day
So ill never have to worry what tomorrow will bring
because my faith is on solid rock im counting on God"

Heard this song at The Feast, a gathering of Catholic Light of Jesus Community every Sunday at the PICC. They call it LSS (Last Song Syndrome) coz i kept on singing it...Wish i could sing it from the heart, as i really need joy at this point in my life...yap unspeakable joy!

Can't seem to find " joy" when im troubled like today. My faith - supposed to be on solid rock - is wavering. It's hard to look beyond when what you have right now is unending misery. Or am i just a wory wart? I worry too much....but why not? when i can't keep up with the bills. When income isn't enough for the expenses...that's why i worry about what tomorrow will bring....Still, i should, i must, count on GOD...always, always, always. He is my rock. And he is my unspeakable joy.

How Great is Our God

How Great is Our God
Sing with me how great is our God
How i sing how great
How great is our God!

They say you become what you think about most. If your thoughts are negative, you attract negative people & events into your life. That's why we have to be careful of what we think. Make every effort to stay positive. How? Just pray, always always always....

And don't forget to be thankful. Give thanks for all that he has done for you. Focus on the things that you have, not on what you don't have. That's why i am reminding myself today not to focus on my lack of money. Oh i am financially drained & can't meet my obligations, but these are all temporary. I have a big God. I have a great God who will provide for my needs. These are all temporary. Blessing will pour out, because my God is great. And i'll sing it today, How great how great is our God......

my life @ sm

One of the perks of my work at SM is i got to see celebrities up close. When Hypermarket Adriatico was opened in 2010, Anne Curtis was there since she is an endorser of LOreal. Love to watch her on TV, i like her fashion style & she's cheerful & bubbly. But she looks harassed & she's sooo thin. I adore her 5inch heels though & the pink lips...gorgeous!

Managed to have a picture with Bong Navarro (Selecta ice cream endorser) at the elevator. He really has girls following him & screaming on top of their lungs...hay naku, pinoy movie fans talaga! ang kukulit! But good he has to escape through the elevator to avoid the "wild" fans. Got my chance to hug & have a picture with him hahaha! Shaina was also present for Sunsilk, just got a few sec to click the camera though.

They say pag mahilig sa artista baduy daw...but i'm a movie fan....so i am baduy???!

Lowtime

Did you ever feel you've hit rock bottom? that whatever you do doesn't feels right? that no matter how hard you tried you always end up being reprimanded???? that's what i'm feeling now. Even if i try so hard to act normal, parang wala na akong kagana gana!!!! all i want to do is go home & sleep. all i'm wishing is to win jackpot in lotto so i can start all over again...away from all these people...to start anew. How do i get out of this mess???

But i believe God allowed me to come into this situation to make me realize that work is just 20% of my life. That my focus should not be just with work, that i should also take a look at my relationship, with my family, with my friends...why are you so downcast oh my soul? now is the best time to pray & so i say....

Lord, i lay my worries before you & ask for your mighty intervention. Show me please what's right when i can only see what's wrong. I am determined to see the good & so help me not be blinded by my doubts, fears, wants & pre-conceived ideas. I ask you to reveal to me your truth in every situation. Give me your perspective & bless me with the ability to understand the bigger picture & to distinguish the valuable from the unimportant. When something seems to go wrong, help me not to jump into negative conclusions. Enable me to recognize the answers to my own prayers. I trust you to help me see light in every situation.

Seeing what's right with this picture

Have you ever found yourself angry, upset or devastated when things didn't turn out as you'd hoped or planned? Next time that happens, look deeply into the situation and ask God to give you a new perspective.

We can usually find another way to view our situation beyond how we initially see it. Because we walk in the light of the Lord, blessings abound for us in each moment. Sometimes though we deliberately look for them. God's light does not blind us, but we can be blind to God's light. We don't always see the whole truth. Sometimes we see everything but the truth.

There was an announcement last week about our table of organization. I will not be the brand leader anymore. Management chose someone over me. Of course i was devastated, i felt i was humiliated. After all the hardwork, i felt i was being sidelined. The effort wasn't recognized. It was so painful especially when a staff asked me what happened. But then God again has his own way of coming to me during turbulent times. Sisters & brothers in Familia (the community where we are member) invited us to join the Kerygma conference last weekend. And i was so glad i did. I was restored!

God gave me a new perspective. He made me look at the situation & see "What's right with this picture?". Hey, i should examine the flip side, find every positive aspect of the situation.
It will keep me protected from the cynical, hopeless, and bitter attitude. This is not just positive thinking or trying to make good things happen with my thoughts. I would like to see God's perspective & let me show me the truth. That means finding the light in what seems to be a dark situation. It's knowing that, because i invited Him into every step of my life, i can find His light no matter how dark it seems.

I know God is in the middle of doing something great for me. I may not be comfortable with what's happening now, i know He has put good things in my lap. I just need to see "what's right with this picture". What is the truth in this moment?

Lord, help me to see it from Your perspective, reveal to me your truth in this situation. Bless me with the ability to understand the bigger picture & to distinguish the valuable from the unimportant. Help me not to jump to negative conclusions. Enable me to recognize the answers to my own prayers. I trust you to help me see the light in every situation.

Thank you Nanay

Just had a trip back to Bacolod to attend my uncle's funeral & was stunned by how things are since the time we left Bacolod to try our luck in Manila. My cousins are all married with lots of kids & doesn't have a steady source of income. Contemplating on their life now, i realized how i am truly blessed with a strong-willed mother. Had she not gathered her courage to try our luck in Manila, i couldn't have finished college, got a good job & enjoy an easy life. I could have ended up like my cousins. My mother is a dressmaker. She has to raise us 3 children all by herself. She dreamt of sending us all to college with her  meager income. She didn't allow difficulties to deter her in sending us to school & even got the courage to venture in Manila as she was hoping that she could earn more in Manila than in Bacolod. Armed with her skills & a sewing machine, she guided & encouraged us all to finish school & persevere in life. Thank God for Nanay. For her unconditional love for us. For her long hours in front of her sewing machine to ensure that we all have baon to school once she finished what she was doing. For the dedication & love. I wouldn't be where i am now if not for her. May i be able to show my appreciation for what she has done for me in her lifetime. She's 71 years old now. I am giving her generous allowance every month so she can enjoy life. She can shop for things that she was unable to buy for herself before....I pray to God that he bless more, so i could share more to her. Oh i even dream of travelling abroad with her, i want to show her Hongkong, Singapore & most of all, the Holy land. May God bless my dreams.